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Apr

I Can’t Really Call IT!

ImageEver feel like something is wrong but you just can’t put your finger on it? I can’t really say “how I am feeling” outside of that I am feeling some type of way. Could it be that I transitioned into a new job & everything seems so damn foreign to me? I went from an environment of security to feeling a bit insecure in my new endeavors. It could just be the ultimate feeling of “fear”, but fear of what? Fear of not succeeding?

I am just confused, I don’t know how to feel. Therefore, not sure how to solve my problem, the factors are all there but I can’t seem to fit them into an equation. I know one thing is for sure I am NOT doing what I am destined to do. This CANNOT be the path the good Lord had in store for me, a stepping stone to being on my way YES! I refuse to think this is what I am supposed to do for the rest of my life; to be at someone else’s beckoning call, YEA NO THANKS!

Don’t get me wrong I am extremely grateful for having a job, but I just can’t help but to feel that this isn’t exactly the PLAN he had in store for me. Did I jump the gun to quick? Should I have waited out my old position? There are SO many “I shoulda/coulda’s”it would take me a lifetime to list them ALL!

My starting point is ME and so is my ending point…how it ends is how I start! That being said I have decided to FOCUS on what I WANT from this LIFE…not what this LIFE can give me. I don’t have the patience to wait on LIFE. Therefore, I am taking what belongs to me, I will NOT lose my faith & even though I do NOT understand how I am feeling, I trust the good LORD will deliver me from this rut. He will take my hand & lead me to the next plateau.

I have been told, I have read, I have heard that the BIGGEST challenge to keeping Faith is to BELIEVE even when you don’t understand. I definitely DO NOT understand because at the moment I CANNOT find the words to describe the anguish I feel deep down. I am certain of ONE thing for sure, no matter how great my anguish is the LOVE of Him is far greater. I have Faith He will deliver me. I am letting go & letting God!

 

 

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23

Dec

Say Hello To Twenty Twelve

As another year ENDS & another one BEGINS, it seems to always be bitter sweet sorrow. Just like years before there are happy & sad, great & bad, serious & funny times that come along within those 365 days.

We all have NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTIONS, we all hope for a better NEW YEAR. We all want fortune, health, love, family & friends. We all part the past year with reminiscent memories of what we accomplished, the hurdles we jumped through, the battles we fought, the awkward moments, but most of all wisdom from our trials & errors.

As we go into the NEW YEAR I wanted to wish all of my LOVED ONES, FRIENDS, COLLEAGUES, ACQUAINTANCES a very fruitful 2012.

I truly hope that all you set your mind to, will manifest into an ACCOMPLISHMENT(s)/GOAL(s)

I wish that you never feel unloved, may you always feel an abundance of LOVE

I hope that even your darkest days, always have some LIGHT shed

I truly hope your dreams to become reality, so you won’t have to pound so many pavements

I wish that you never loose FAITH, even when the odds seem grim

I hope you hold your head up HIGH, because 2012 is your YEAR to SHINE BABY

God Bless you all, with so much love, plenty of warmth, tons of hugs, a billion kisses, and never any judgement…CHEERS to a NEW YEAR!!!

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24

Oct

From ME to YOU…

Sometimes LIFE…may seem so difficult && virtually impossible to coupe…there are good days as there are bad days…we have UPS && we have DOWNS…but with each day we gain more wisdom to make better choices…we may even learn a new word to broaden our vocabulary…making communication that much easier…we are taught lessons every second, every minute, every hour, everyday…each time we think we have figured it all out…LIFE has something else in store, but like GOD it never gives us more than we can handle…more than we can chew, more than we can carry…the beauty of LIFE is that, IT, not only gives you the fundamentals to make it on a daily…but the techniques to survive for a LIFETIME…the hunger to make each meal 5 stars…the ambition to make the BEST from the WORST…we must embrace everyday && all of those that mean the most to US…be able to express our LOVE && our inner emotions…we need to REJOICE what we have && not ponder on what we don’t…LIFE is like a BREEZE all you have to do is allow yourself to be swept…BELIEVE in who you are; no matter what the circumstance maybe…what the scene is looking like or what the spectators are looking for…it’s YOU that LIFE manifests from…if there is a WILL there is a WAY…if you don’t BELIEVE you can’t expect someone else too…LIFE is what you make of IT!!!

Peace && Many Blessings…from my HEART to your EYES && EARS to listen…your HEART 2 thump too!!!

-veezy M baby (c) 2008

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